I've spent the past 2 Thanksgivings in St. Andrews, Scotland with my friend Nathalie (re: high school bff who is now in her fourth year of Uni there). Maybe that's why the past few weeks I've been thinking a lot about the friends I made and left in Europe, why I've been wondering when I'll be back in the EU next, and how insane the past 1 year has been.
Last October when I flew to Ireland on my Working Holiday Visa, I could have stayed for a year. I wanted to, originally. I wanted to stay for a year, and find a way to never move back to America. Alas one thing led to another and my life took a 180 degree turn when I decided I should stay in LA and keep pursuing the things I was, with the people I was building a little community with.
So instead of staying in Ireland for 1 year, I decided to spend the last 3 months of 2015 traveling through Europe to places I had friends and family, to eventually end my year in Iran before coming back to LA on January 1st 2016.
Let's flashforward to today: 2016 has been all kinds of ridiculous and thrilling, and mostly fulfilling and eye-opening. Beating Lights isn't just something I'm doing post-grad while I figure out what I'm actually going to do with my life. I'm convinced that the confidence I've gained the past year not only in just the things I do but who I am stemmed from those 3 months away, where I was floating through places and people, forced to be as comfortable as I could be. While traveling alone, discomfort is almost a nuisance, so the only way to feel as grounded as possible, is to just BE comfortable.
I wonder every day now if I'm going to live in LA forever.. I really hope not. I still think it's too hot here, and I wish there were more trees. But, those are dreams for the future. Right now, I'm hyperthankful for what my life has become, the people who fill it, the creativity that surrounds it, the tiny moments in between that hold it together. I don't really believe in Forever right now, so I'm taking everything a day at a time (a project at a time? a show at a time? a song at a time?)
Cheers to whatever comes next <3.
In my fit of nostalgia, I edited some unedited photos from my travels last year:
St Andrews, UK